This was posted today. Does this sound familiar to anyone?

Hello, I've been watching this club for a couple of months now and have finally decided to start putting my dimes worth in. Here's a brief summary. I had been a Scientologist, staff member and Sea Org member for eleven years. I started thinking for myself (like the slogan says). I had always wondered why I wasn't allowed to look into anything else.

I had always read that Scientology wasn't dogmatic yet there I was being told how to live my life OR ELSE! I had just never dared to question things before. I was always scared of having my OT levels denied me. I had questions like what really happened when LRH died? because on the rumour line I'd heard that he'd had a stroke. I wondered what happened to Pat and Annie Broeker? Why did they get declared when LRH trusted them at the end of his life?

What happened to Goeff Walker (the ex-SNR C/S INT)? I'd heard that he'd left staff. Why are there so many bulletins coming out e.g: The Golden Age of Tech when LRH died in 1986? I noticed that I started getting treatment from fellow staff members that was uncanny (especially from the DSA).

I all of a sudden started being treated like I was a criminal.

I started to become ostracized. I even found out that I was the subject of an investigation. All I was trying to do was be a good staff member/scientologist. Then information from my "Priest Penitent" PC Folder was used against me.

So I departed. Still believing in LRH I went about my life completely confused as here was this organisation with this amazing technology and then I looked at the way I was treated. And all I could think was that management had really become corrupt. "Imagine what LRH would think if he saw what was going on" Slowly I started noticing things on the internet. If I noticed any of the "OT stuff"

I'd quickly exit out and not dare look at it. There was no way I was going to jeopardize my spiritual freedom because some SP had put OT stuff on the net. And to top it off I really didn't want to get keyed in!!!! Especially now that I wasn't in good stan! ding with the org. Slowly but surely I'd notice things on the anti-scientology pages especially xenu.net. What really did it for me was reading the Carol S story posted on there. It made me realise, "hang on, this has happened to others". So I started to read more and more. It has been quite a long process but with the help of the internet and the book Bare faced messiah I am able to see what a complete scam the whole thing is.

I read the OT stuff quite a while back now and I didn't get pneumonia and die. In fact I haven't been sick since.

And I haven't been keyed in since either. I was so scared of doing anything to jeopardize getting my OT Levels. What EMOTIONAL BLACKMAIL!!!!!! When I first cognited on the enormity of the scam I felt like the rug had been pulled out from under me. But now I feel strong and it's all coming from me MY INNER STRENGTH not from some belief in a humbug!

I'm the happiest I've ever been! To all you staff members/Sea Org members, ask the questions you want answered see what kind of response you get.

Go Back